Travisalm Part two

At this point, I really don't surscribe to any donomanation, it really scares me. I see so many churches out there, and so many people out there, that are religous, but really not spirt filled, and it puts a bad taste in my mouth. After reading John, Luke and Matthwew, I really have a dislike for the Pharisees of old ( the ones who killed Jesus, to protect there law and way of life .), and of new (Different Churches, that are more concerend about where the cross sits in a church, then feeding the people with gospal.) , they enrage me! On the news we are always now adays hearing about the middle east and the islamic fundamentlest terroists wanting and saying " Kill the infidal!!!!!!" And by God we are over there in the hundreds of thosends fighting ( mostly over control over oil) and dying. But we look right at home on our streets and our churches people making statements like " If you don't surscribe to our belief, If your not married under our house, if your not babtized this way, etc........ Your going to hell!!!!!!!". I don't know about you but I would rather be killed as a beliver, by some crazed islamic terrorest, then live to a ripe old age and go to hell. So who really is making the ultamite threat? Although I havn'nt been studying the bible very long, but I've been searching Jesus's word and nowhere did he say " If you don't belong to ( you fill in the blank) church, you are not welcome in my kingdom." Basicly from my readings and interputations, the only thing that he really wants is our hearts, thats it. The heart is really a big area, the heart does incompass your whole life, all your actions and all your deallings, but its funny that all you really have to do is give Jesus your heart and he fills in the rest of your life, as it was in my case, and I imagine lots of outher people. When I gave my heart to Jesus, I didn't think well I have to stop drinkin' , I have to stop looking at porn, I have to ( all things that are bad and inmoral) etc...... before I'm a Christion, I just out of destress gave it to him, and old things became old and new things became new, I didn't want to drink any more, I didn't want to wacth porn anymore, where I was harsh I became gentle, where I was complacent I became stuidient. There is this guy on the radio that is always saying " Give Jesus all the parts of your shattered life and he will put it back together, better then ever!" He is so right.
John Chapter 11;25-26

Jesus said to her,

" I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; and whoever lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?"

That there almost sums alot of it up for me. The most important part of being a christion to Jesus; the most importent person in the world; is believing, its not belonging to the right church, its not saying your prayers just right, its not where the cross sits in a church, its not somthing money can buy, its all about believing, its all about Jesus.

Making the jump from thinking human like, to thinking devine like, is a ungoing struggle for me. I really get cought up in the human world. If I was in the garden with Jesus and his friends when he was arrested I would have one uped Peter, I wouldn't have went for the ear I would have went for the throut. I mean it really angers me that he was crucified by these Pharisees, and that anger spills into my out look of organized religoin. But really I need to take a step out of the box and look at it in a devine light, and what really happened. Jesus is God, He died on the cross for our sins, he was'nt killed in what we think of in a human form, you can't kill God! And three days latter he rose again. I really get cought up in his death and forget about the resurrection. When I think of Jesus, I get thinkin' of him as one of the boys, not as a God, I think of him as my friend, and forget that he is God and he isn't like us, he was the perfect man.