Where ever the lord takes me......

It just amazies me every day that I give my self to Gods will, where it takes me, how it blesses me, what it does for me, and who I meet. Although somtimes I really get a questioning Gods will, Becouse it dosn't always seem like I'm headed in the right direction, but as long as I prey my way through the low spots, the highs are as high as the mountains. Everyday is always a journy, everyday is always a new adventure, everyday is always a struggle with temptation. But everyday bit as always as rewarding as the last.
My life has never been a bed of roses, and up till when I gave my heart to Jesus it just kept going from bad to worse, no matter how hard I tried.
I started working at a small welding shop outside of Rosmary a couple weeks ago. the owner goes to the same church as I do, any ways it's the first time I've ever work in a group of Christian, and I tell you what; it is nice, there isn't any cusing or swaring, there is just a ease of love in the air there, I don't know if you know what I mean but.... Have you ever walked in a room and just felt a wave of love or hate come up and hit you in the chin or caress your heart? Well In the oil patch generly any where I've worked there is always a sting of hostilty in the air, but this place is different, you can just feel Gods love there.
Anyways when I got out of school yrs ago I had a opertunity to work there, but I didn't take it, becouse I thought that my uncle needed me more on the feedlot, then I needed to be welding. And anyways about a weeks ago I got thinking . How would my life would differ if I would have started working there right out of high school? I wonder if I would of found Jesus alot sooner? I wondered if I would of spared my self alot of pain and hard knocks?
I'm really not sure what the answers would be but I'm happy with what I got. If I was a Cristian years ago I wouldn't have meet my wife that I love.I wouldn't have my 3 Boys. I wouldn't have cowboyed in mongolia, there is alot of stuff that would'nt of happened, that shaped me into who I am today. I don't think I would be able to to spread the word half as well as I do now, with out knowing the difference without all of my gutter experiance.
And all that opens even more questions about my walk with Jesus. When did it exzactly start? Did it start when I gave my Heart to Jesus? Or did it start the second that I was conceived? Although the turn around in faith brought nothing but good to me and my faimly when I gave my heart to Jesus. But the miricles of God have been there my whole life......I was just to blind to see them......In some ways I think God has had a plan for me from day one, and all the bumps along the way, was him molding me into a useable vessle.
We just have to have faith, we just have to believe, and go where ever the lord takes us.

Repentance?

Wow had a excellent weekend. We went up north to Elana's folk's, at Cold lake, and to a barrel racing clinic at Elana's friend Carol's at medeow lake, would have been nice to have stayed up therte for anohter week, didn't get enough visiting done.
On saterday on the way back from carols Nicole our 19 yrold niece started talking about the word, we all talked about varios subjects on he trip, bu there was one thing that she brought up, and tha was the act of repentience.
Repentance is somthing that really has stuck in my head ever since, and really not about what she was saying about it. More or less : What is repentance? And how does repentance come part of my reletionship with Christ?
On the way home last night I started reading 1 John, and it was kind of startaling to find that bears the fruits of he very questions I've been asking myself.

1 John chap 1;5-10

Walking in the light.

This is the message we have heared from him and declare to you: God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. If we claim to have fellowship with him yet walk in darkness, we lie and do not live by the truth. But if we walk in the light, as he is the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, purifies us from all sin.

If we claim to be with out sin, we decieve ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. If we claim we have not sinned, we make him out to be a liar and his word has no place in our lives.

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True confession involves a commitment not to continue in sin, We wouldn't be genuineley confessing our sins to God if we planned on commiting them again, and just wanted temporay forgivness. We should prey for strength to defeat tempation the next time we face it.

REPENT(ANCE)(S) To experience sorrow for and seek to change wrong behavior.

REMORSE A Gnawing distress arising from a sense of guilt for past wrongs.

True repenatnce brings you closser to the Lord. Remorse I think is somthing that alot of people get cofuessed with repentance, the guilt is the lord pushing you away.

Acts chapter 18;9-22 (Niv)

On night the Lord spoke to Pual in a visoin: " Do not be afraid; keep on speaking, do no tbe silent. For I am with you, and no one is going to attack and harm you, becouse I have many people in this city." So Pual stayed for a year and a half teaching them the word of God.

While Galllio was proconsel of Achaia, the Jews made a united attack on Pual and brought him to court. "This man," they charged,"is presuading the people to worship God in ways contray to the law".

Just as Pual was about to speak, Gallio said to the Jews, " If you Jews were making a complaint about some misdemeaner or seroius crime, it would be resonable for me to listen to you. But since it involves a questions about words and names of your own law- settle the matter yourselves. I will not be a judge of such things." So he had them ejected from the court. Then they all turned on Sosthenes the synagogue ruler and and beat him in fron tof the court . But Gallio no concern whatever.

Pual stayed on in Corinth for sometime. Then he left hte brothers and sailed for Syria, accompanied by Preicella and Aquila. Before htey sailed , he had his hair cut off at Cenchrea becouse of a vow he had taken. they arrived at Ephesus, where Pual left Prisceilla and Aqulia. He himself wen tto the synogogue and reasoned wih the Jews. When they asked him to spend more time wiht them , he declined. But as he left he promised. " I will come back if it is Gods will." Then he set sail from Ephesus. When he landed at Caesarea, he went up and greeetd the church and went down to the Antioch.

All though this scripture may sound dry and not intereasting, there is a couple things that kind of jump out at me.

First of all; Pual would also have a fear of sharing the word, probly like us all; but wiht alot more fear then all of us put together. How many times had Pual been stoned, put in jail & cheated death by the skin of his teeth, for shareing the word? Alot, his travels were not like a trip to Mexico for a winter vacation, if he was in the oldwest there would be a wanetd poster up on every post ,shingle or billboard from here to Texas.

So why is it that us here in a free country are we scared to share the word with our friends and faimly? I havn' t heard of to many stoning of Christians in Alberta laetly. I think we all should think about. Does not the bible tell us we should share the word, to all?We do after all have gods blessing, why are we worried about what others will think? Should we not be more worried about what God thinks?

Secondly; the Goverment really has no power compaered to the power of God. And a smart Politicain or judge has no bussniss overturning gods will, it is impossible he has the last word always. I wonder what his final will is going to be to the Judges & Politictions that have legalized abortion?

Any ways i'm sorry I havn'n t been Blogging lately. Been kind of side tracked with work and to little time. Really its a poor excuse, I've wacthed alot of C.S.I when I could have been on here shareing the word, I guess in a way I've been making the devil happy. It's funny how sneeky that sucker is, you lock him out of the front door he comes in the back, the same old battle.

nawing & nashing of teeth

You know in the bible I've read sevral times kind of a discription of hell. It gets discribed as a lot of nawing and nashing of teeth. In some ways i'm looking at the domestic household and demomestic violance, are we creating our own personal hell on earth? By not living by Gods grace, is that our curse? It's kind of strange when you take a step out of the box and have a look what is going on, it always seems there is no happy mediam in marriges, you can uselly class marriges in two different classes:1- Living in bliss and totally in love, or : 2- living in constant termoil and totaly a odds. And if you have a look at each relationships lifesytles more often then not one couple is living in gods grace the other is not.
So what do you do about it? Prayer is the only thing that has been any help in my case. It's like when the old rich guy wants to come back from hell and warn his sons. But it was of no use , it wouldn't matter what he would say they wouldn't believe him. The work has to be done by the holy spirt. So I just prey and trust in god more and more eachday.